pondering

I always wonder what life would be like if I was famous, homeless, older, dying, or just another person. I work at a hotel and 2 nights a week I do dreadful night shifts. They aren't fun at all. Why?

1. I'm alone for 8 hours.


2. Homeless people always come wandering in at some point in the night.


3. Something always goes wrong with the computer at some point in the night and can't get help until 6:30 when its a reasonable time to call my boss and tell him I broke the computer for the 50th time.


4. I just eat when I'm bored making me pack on the pounds.


5. I'm so tired every time I do a shift

If you don't believe me ask my brother-in-law, he can relate also. I don't have consistancy with shifts which is what really messes with my sleeping schedule. Saturday - morning shift, sunday monday afternoon shift and tuesday wednesday are night shifts. Soon I will be going on a 10 day vacay to visit my sister Jen, sister-in-law Teresa, their babies ! and surprise a friend. I booked off my time, got it accepted and then got a phone call. I've been applying to be in the Canadian Forces since September and just got accepted. I got promoted to the rank of Officer Cadet and got phoned seeing if I wanted to do some training. I was sleeping when they called and received the message after they had already closed. I was in Air Cadets for 8 years and no intentions of joining the Forces, but something struck me in September and I really wanted to join, so away went 100+ forms and a whole bunch more paperwork, 2 interviews later, a medical later and alot of talking about myself I got in.

I want to go to this training so badly, but here is the problem. I am going to be working at Alberthead this summer as an officer and that starts June 20th-ish. The training that I want to attend is from May 13 - 22nd. Therefore if I take this trip and do the training I am gone May 3 - 22nd. Thats basically the whole month that I'd have to take off work. I don't know if my boss will really appreciate it. He might not give me my job back when I return, but fingers crossed, a whole lot of praying and I'm wishing that it will happen. My boss is pretty good about giving people time off and giving them what they please. I love my boss. He's the greatest. (OH HEYYY! that is if you ever see this :P ) They will have to find someone anyways to fill my spot when I leave in June and if they start training a girl now or later in the month, she can take my shifts and then be full time during the summer. My job in no means is a labour intesive job at all. I go on the computer, do my english 12 course, watch TV, check people in/out and greet people when they walk in the door. The thing that makes me so tired from it is boredom making me tired. Like I love it that I have so much time, but sometimes its too much time. Like tonight I tried to do my english, but I am just too tired to be reading a big story right now and then writing a paper on it. It's just not going to happen right now. The book I am doing is The Kite Runner. I am the kind of person that only reads books when I'm forced to. I hate reading. Yes, thats right, I hate reading, but this book was AMAZING! If you are searcing for a book to read, by all means PICK UP THIS BOOK AND READ IT! Some parts of it are like, ughh, blah blah blah blah blah, but once you get through it, it's totaly amazing. I'd read it again. I got a little teary eyed also at some parts. I've never cried while reading a book. I don't get how some people can do it. But seriously PICK UP THE BOOK AND READ IT!

So if you're the praying type, please pray that things will fall in place for this training and my trip and that I will get my job back when I come back. Also pray that they will find a suitable person to replace me. We've had quite a few people go through the doors because the job was too difficult for them and way to stressful at times.