.

You tell yourself to not get attached
but your heart says to
Not wanting to let him in
Only knowing heartbreak is to follow

You wish that things could be different
but knowing your life, failure only follows
Why can't he come around?
A man of dignity with love to give

Maybe I don't look in the right places
My guessing is true
I know he's out there somewhere
I'll just have to wait

.

You're so young with so much to live for
You do what you want, but never see the consequences
A new guy every week
you wonder why your feelings are so mixed up.

He was my best friend
now just a liar
How can you trust someone like that
has he even be truthful to you?

You say one story
he says another
you get me involved
now i just want out

2 little lines appear on a stick
now you got a little baby
9 months until you hold him
but who will be there for support

I tried to tell you
but you didn't listen
i'll be there for you
we can get through this

can't say i never told you so
he's so furious and tries to fall back on me
your problems are your consequences
don't get mad at me for what you did

you lied to me
you called me vulgar names
you ignore me
and now you want me back

i feel like a piece of dirt
you trample on me
you stomp on me
please leave me alone

move on and leave me behind
its not worth all the pain and suffering

...

You lay in your bed most nights just thinking.
Is making poems going to be your way of writing
Or maybe writing letters.

I still haven't decided.

I lay here thinking about you
wondering what went wrong
We were so close, but you changed
what did I do to turn you off

Its been 6 months and not even a word
no text, no email, no phone/skype call
nothing
where did I go wrong?

I try to move on but always get stopped by something
the sound of your name, a picture of your face
how could i possible move on?
it feels near impossible right now

I know that I need to get some sleep
but all i can think about is you
the countdown on my wall shows when i leave
hopefully see your face along the way

Changes of that are slim pickings
but who knows what this trip will bring
i hope to see you again someday
or maybe it will just have to be goodbye

I thought I saw a future
but i guess i was wrong
maybe we just need time apart to really think
of how good we would actually be

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

why sleep WHEN YOU CAN GO TO WALMART?!?

I did that exact thing. At 1:37 am, my friend ashley and I went trecking to walmart. Why you ask we went? Because we could. We'd mideaswell go when its open! It only happens for a month of the year and then its over. It was fun night. I would post pictures, but I don't have enough room for it and Flikr won't work for me right now. So, pictures are on a halt for a bit. But here is a video. Enjoy!

Why make gingerbread men when you can make gingerbread CADETS?

... Well Kayla and I did that exact thing. We are such big cadet nerds that everything we do it cadetish. We made gingerbread cadets and a drill hall (it didn't stay together well :( ) But over all it was fun. We had many blonde moments trying to make them like this..

Kayla "We can't make black gloves or black belts now because we don't have black."

Me "I guess we have to make white belts and white gloves"

*we both think for a bit, then look at eachother*

both "AHHHHH!!!" and then gave eachother a high five

Why that is, is because on fancy or special occasions we wear white gloves and white belts to make us look good. So our wonderful thinking made everything go over well. IT was great fun, we made a huge mess, made a double batch but only used half of it. Next time I make gingerbread cadets I'll remember to:

• Make a single batch, if you need more, then make more
• Hold the gingerbread cadet hall together until the icing drys
• When you make a mess at first, clean it up so that it doesn't get bigger
• Don't have your boyfriend there.. he puts icing on your face

The shapes are made

Our drill shed is made with cadets in front of it, (The red icing is because we ran out of white, so we had to use the red icing)

mmmm coookies!

we are the only the coolest people ever!

We're finished

What are your gingerbread men going to turn into?

Its to cold when you try to breathe through your nose and it sticks together...

... In Terrace, when it gets really cold, the lakes freeze up and then we go skating on them in the winter time. Last night we did that thing. We bundled up, hoped into brandons automobile, stopped by Timmy Hoes, and then headed off to the lake. We tied our skates to our feet, well Travis and I did (Brandon had 2 left foot skates), and then took a picture. I ended up with the handicap hat that sticks up when I wear it.

Travis, Me, Mom, Roxanne, Brandon

We were really cold

"Erica, you have the longest arms, can you take a picture of all of us?" Thanks mom =]

Well this one didn't work, due to Roxanne being to short.

Well that was our adventure. It was very fun, but so cold. I think our toes froze off in the end of it, but over all it was fun. Thank goodness Timmy Hoes gives hot drinks to us, because we would of been lost without them.

ugly sweaters, car rides, cold weather, boys...

... that is my what my world revolves around. Oh and then blasting the music in my moms little car. I love the car. But yes. On wednesday at youth group we had an Ugly sweater/white elephant night. I wore this wonderfully knitted sweater that my teacher owns that his mother-in-law made. Its such an ugly beautiful sweater. I wore his wifes sweater and brandon wore his. One thing someone asked us was, "I can't believe people actually wore these!" I told them with after that, that my teacher still wears the one Brandon is wearing. Its quite Funny.

As you can see, he`s always proud to be wearing his piece of art. At youth group we did a game with the 12 days of christmas. How it went was we were split into the 12 months depending on your birthday month. January - 1st day, February - 2nd day, March - 3rd day, April - 4th day... and so on, so forth. You get the idea I bet. So he played the song and then when you heard your day you were to run into the center and hug everyone and then run back. Look here. it was a very fun night.

They had an Egg Nog Chugging contest

Gingerbread house making contest (it faileed because the icing was to thin)

They put sour keys in a bucket of salt water and then with a candy cane, you had to get them out and the other person had to eat them. Look here

Well there are the ugly sweaters at our youth group and in the end, Brandon and I were the winners of the contest because they felt that we had the ugliest sweaters.

And for all those who wanted a picture of me and my boyfriend Travis, here is one.